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Aimée Hinds 

 

My name is Aimée Hinds, I entered onto the comedy circuit around June and do as many open spots as I can. I am a darkly funny storyteller who finds humour in the places most people try to forget.
Drawing from my real experiences with mental health, including time spent in the psyche wards, I turn chaos into comedy with raw honesty and razor-sharp wit. My performances blend vulnerability, defiance, and perfectly timed gallows humour. I  don’t  just talk about survival, I laugh in its face. Heckle me and You’ll arrive in heckler hell, be it on your head.

When I’m not doing stand up comedy, you’ll find me on air at Paisley Radio as part of a trio hosting the breakfast show.
I have been writing for years and I am currently writing a book about my life. My life has always been a tad wild and it felt right to start writing about it.

The reason I decided to embark on a journey into the comedy world was so I could share my stories and express to others who struggle that they are not alone.
I often overshare details of my life that others find traumatic and stories are met with a gasp, yet I do it in a way people that make people laugh. I am an open book, whose raw honesty is often appreciated. I have met so many authentic, colourful characters on my journey so far and absolutely love that I have found these people.

Over the last year my life has taken a full 180, and I am now living life for me on my terms without letting mental illness haunt me. It’s still a struggle but I am extremely positive and just vibe with whatever is thrown my way.

I have included an extract from my book, maybe a publisher will see it, hahah. Yes, I am also a chancer. I promise it does get funny!

The book is still to be named, hit me up with ideas for it. You’ll find on social media via Instagram - @aimee.hinds.comedy and Facebook - Aimée Hinds.

“ In this life, i have been blessed in many ways. I have been blessed by an abundance of life experiences in my 36 years around the fiery star in which our existence rotates.
From the most amazing experiences to the utterly soul shattering. I have felt the intensity of the full spectrum of emotions, including ones I didn’t want to feel and ones I still cannot find a word to aptly describe. The sensations I felt, feel through my body, mind & soul as they engulf my entire being, no words can describe.

I am blessed because one must encompass the experience of life in all its light and darkness. One must feel the real chaos of raw sentient emotions and experiences in order to truly live. To feel so deeply is to be alive. To experience this world so vividly, is to truly live a life fulfilled.

For a long time I battled with the concept that life isn’t supposed to be THIS hard. I would look around me and see others appearing to sail through life, the normal highs and lows, the expected life experiences that we all encounter somewhere along our journey.
I would wonder why has my life taken me on such a wild and often painful ride? Why do I have to deal with all this chaos and others appear to sail along calm waters. Why me?

When these thoughts surface - my memory is awakened. I am taken back in time; to when I was around 4 years old, perhaps.
I am a little girl again. I don’t feel like I belong. I feel much wiser than I should, I know things I’m certain I shouldn’t and I can’t shake the feeling that all of this isn’t normal. It was surreal being here on this earth. It doesn’t feel like home.
I sigh and then a tingling feeling of excitement bubbles in my tummy. A voice whispers,
“you’re going to experience all life has to offer, ALL OF IT! You’re going to be ok, I promise. ” It dawned on me I chose to come here to this earth, I had work to do, what that work entailed couldn’t recall. I am Not scared, not one molecule of fear encompasses my being. I smile and skip back to playing the little girl role I’m trapped in at that moment.

I have always felt things so deeply.
The world was bright, vivid, vibrant and being in nature was my absolute favourite place to be. It was peaceful, I loved to look at the flowers and collect bugs, i loved learning about the world and working out the whys and hows of nature. I soaked up everything around me, the noises, the scents, what I could see, touch, taste. The aura of existence. I felt it in my soul, I felt it all. I am still that little girl, masquerading in an adults body.

This world can be a loud and scary place, but right there in that particular moment.  I felt at peace. I felt true, undiluted happiness. I was encompassed by a mysterious unexplainable love and nothing could hurt me. I felt protected by something more than the protection offered by parents.
I really didn’t know just how loud and scary this world could be. I didn’t know what experiences were planned for me, I knew I was to experience a life fulfilled but what those experiences would be, escaped me.

I was always scared of the dark, the shadows moving across my bedroom walls, the inability to see. It was suffocating, overwhelming. This turned into me always running from darkness, from my shadow self. Until one day, I remembered that little  4 year old me, who had absolutely no fear. That inner voice that promised her that she was going to be ok, she was protected.

The inner voice I came to resent for many years,  because everything was absolutely not ok! No-one understood me, no-one knew how to effectively communicate with me, how to help me regulate my emotions. They didn’t understand my needs, my strengths weren’t celebrated or encouraged, only the “flaws” consistently pointed out. I was a problem! I was THE problem. It was shoved in my face repeatedly as a child that I was a problem!

So I’ve always had the inherent belief that I am a problem, this didn’t align with the whisper I so vividly heard at 4 years old. when the realisation I was nothing more than a problem hit me like a tsunami in my chest,  I tiptoed accordingly. I had to ensure I caused no problem, I shut my true self down. No matter what I did, it was always met with disdain. Overwhelming guilt consumed me for years, it still rears its ugliness in all its glory. It’s power Earth shatteringly beautiful.
It’s hard to shake core beliefs that are developed in early infancy, especially when they are reinforced consistently…

Then “the problem” started…and so much fu**ng as she did so…”